I’m so frustrated right now. She’s driving me crazy. I’m so thankful for my newest distraction hopefully it’ll actually workout and become more than a distraction maybe it’ll replace my feelings. In any case I feel so exposed right now. Why I’d she reading those posts what does she care anyway. What even are her thoughts on this? Like does she just want a confidence boost idek. And as far as him…. I hate him. He’s so wrong for her he’s a dick and doesn’t know how to comfort her. He just makes her feel worse. She doesn’t need that. Ugh I just wish that I could be with her all the time and tell her how pretty and perfect and awesome she is. But ya know what sucks I bet she wouldn’t care about my problems as much I care about hers. I feel like I care so much more than everyone else but then again I obviously don’t mean as much to her as she does to me. I Care so much it’s horrible. I’m obsessed. And it sucks because to her I’m just one of her friends that she probably calls when she wants someone to listen and make her feel better,… Whatever hopefully ill have a boy to occupy my mind soon






